I posted about this a bit on instagram today but it’s still on my mind. I just can’t get over the amount of times I hear a day, “Wow! You have your hands full!!” I know it’s an innocent comment and I don’t take it as anything other than that. However, it really makes me think of what a “hand full” means. I can’t think of anything other than goodness. Spending my days with three amazing humans that I carried for 9 months and welcomed into the world with the best dude ever that I call my husband. Three kiddos that will always be my babies. Three people that laugh the hardest when I play along with them, only want me to comfort them during the day when they’re sad or get hurt. These three who choose me to run to when they have something exciting to share. I mean, it’s kind of phenomenally amazing to be so special to three incredible tiny people that my heart beats for. I’m sure 3 kids under 4 looks like it might be a handful, but it’s a handful of happiness, love, chaos and all things I never want to forget. <3

So that was one big random thought. Buuuut I can’t count how many times a day I hear something along those lines..about my hands being full. After adding our newest addition. 😉 Truth be told…going from 1 to 2 was way more of a transition than 2 to 3!

always reminds me of this quote,

“It is no small thing, when they, who are so fresh from God, love us.” – Charles Dickens

Tonight we went to the pumpkin patch. It was such a perfect evening! So cool that it actually felt like fall! Not busy at all and because of that…no lines for pony rides and bounce houses!! Happy happy.

((also..side note..fisheye lens. super fun. distortion from a fisheye/wide angle is just so fun when it comes to kiddos!))

OMG. It is officially FALL. My favorite time of the year. Especially after the most ridiculously hot summer being 7, 8, 9 months pregnant. I am welcoming cool weather and the changing colors with open arms. Tonight we spent the evening playing on our amazing home-made, no money spent, daddy built playground. These kiddos of ours make my world go round and I am beyond thankful that my Saturday evenings that used to be filled with wild nights and craziness 😉 are now filled with something so much more fulfilling and heartwarming and life changing. Nothing changes your outlook on life like having kids and watching them grow. Most cliche thing ever, but the most true thing ever too. Lawson was hanging in his carseat sound asleep after a walk around the block, but it’s a matter of time before he’s out there with them. <3

I have been one busy and happy momma lately..with three kiddos. Our sweet baby boy, Lawson Krew, arrived on September 15th and melted our hearts. It’s wild that even if you’ve been through it all before, the entire process of labor and delivery and meeting your child for the first time is nothing short of a miracle. I was overwhelmed with love and adoration for this tiny life that we are so blessed to be in charge of. Delivery was fabulous and a bit rough…epidural wore off when I was at 4cm and then I went from 5cm to 10 in literally 3 minutes. So I wasn’t expecting to ‘feel’ all of labor and delivery, but I did and I survived! 🙂 Our baby boy came out with some scary breathing issues for a little bit, but a CPAP and lots of skin to skin and nursing made him bounce back to 100%. Thank God. I cherished every moment in the hospital. Every little detail. I look at my two older kiddos and realize how incredible fast it all goes, and how you blink and a year goes by…and I just breathed in Lawson’s newborn smell, kissed his little face a million times, and didn’t sleep because I wanted to stare at him. Having Logan and Londyn meet him…well, there aren’t words in the world to describe the emotions we felt watching their reaction to him. Pure love. They were overcome with the same immediate love we felt and it was more than we could ever have hoped for. After those first few days in the hospital, we came home and had a whirlwind few days. At 3 days old, we took Lawson and our little family to Chino – random I know – but, the fabulous Rachel Vanoven was in town doing a newborn workshop and needed family/newborn/sibling models for the workshop. I mean…a 90 minute drive to get to be photographed by Rachel?! Done. My fabulous dad got us a hotel up there so we wouldn’t have to drive up and back in the same day and it was like a vacation for our kiddos. Jumping on beds, swimming in the pool and eating out at every meal…yeah, vacation. 🙂 We haven’t gotten all the images yet, but the two we did see…MELT. After the session in Chino…we headed home. It was a Friday. We hit a wall. An exhausted wall. We spent the weekend cuddling – all FIVE of us. We had fun, laughed, played and enjoyed our new normal. Since then life has been amazing. The kids are in love with Lawson, and we are in love with our three. <3

a little sneak peek from Rachel and a behind the scenes shot. I couldn’t even handle the sweetness in the moment…and having it captured forever…it’s almost too much!! <3

The first time they met their baby brother.

Such a simple shot…he’s laying on the ottoman and put his little hands above his head and I couldn’t pass up capturing the moment.

Ok guys, I’m 37 weeks…this little dude will be here in 3 weeks or less and i.am.ready. I’ve always loved pregnancy, specifically the second trimester. I guess that doesn’t mean I love pregnancy, it just means I love weeks 13-27. The third trimester…not a huge fan, especially in summer. Oh my goodness I could not be more uncomfortable and hot and…grumpy. At least I’m honest about it. 😉 But the weirdest thing has happened in the last few days, the realization of our family’s structure changing and having a new tiny life to take care of…to have to divide my attention between the two cuties we have now and a new one…all of that, is huge. It makes me slow down and cherish these last few days/weeks with these two. Makes me appreciate feeling baby’s kicks and hiccups. Makes me grateful for sleep 😛 In all seriousness, it makes me really not want to miss anything. About the life we live now, and to not be caught up wishing for the future, when the present is so good. I cannot wait to meet our baby boy and I know our world is going to change, and I’m excited about that too…life is good.

And if all that talk wasn’t random enough…here are some major random photos of our life lately.

My momma + my brothers. Melt my heart. We had fun + they’re the cutest.